If it's ok with you, today I'd just like to ramble on a bit about some thoughts running through my head. Feel free to just scroll through the pictures if you are in a hurry.
Last August I made a commitment to myself to live creatively, to fully embrace all my creative outlets without judgement, without expectations. I would follow the muse wherever she lead, take courses when I felt like it, and not be afraid to try new things. I have throughout my life dabbled in many forms of creativity, some moreso than others. I dove into music for many years, releasing a CD in 2004 with my band Sonicjoy. But although I love music, I found the music industry a soul killer for me. I met my best friends through my music pursuits, but in general I felt like a freak, like I was just not cool enough to fit in with most of the people I met.
After my son was born in 2007, it took me a few years to return to music, and even when I did, I couldn't find the passion that had been there before. The drive wasn't there. So I turned to photography and painting, which had been other interests for me. In fact, right around the time I was releasing my CD, I was also taking a self-employment program with my photography as the business. But at that time I couldn't see a way to make that happen, so it fell into the background, and for a few years the only pictures I took were of my son.
At the beginning of this year, I set a goal for myself to create enough of a catalogue of images to create an Etsy store. I had no idea what I was going to make, or how I would find my "style".
Then a few weeks ago I was looking through the images that I have posted on this blog and realized that I have already created the collection, that I have already found my "style". And it has been incredibly freeing, and a little scary, to realize that I am ready now. Ready to come full circle back to the photography, which has always pulled at my heart. Ready to declare myself to the world an artist. Ready to become who I was meant to be. I know that this is just the beginning, that there is more unfolding to come. I feel a strong pull to writing, and know that there is a book inside of me waiting to be written. But for now, I am happy to take the next step and begin the work of assembling my products and learning about the business of selling my art.
Inspiration has come to me so abundantly since I started opening myself up to the muse, allowing her wisdom to guide me. I am finding my place, where I am not a freak, where there are many others like me. It feels really good.
And I would like to say thank you, to all of you who have joined me for the journey this far. I am so grateful to this amazing community online, which has given me a place to discover and express myself.
Have a beautiful day!